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Wednesday, December 31, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 11:07 AM

ciaoz 2008 , hello 2009 !!

weeee....today is the last day of 2008.
and i hope it would be a memorable day for me
cuz the end of last year WAS ! hoho..n i did had totally loadda fun last year ^.^v
k..this year is tough for me.
leaving the past,moving into a new environment .where i have to say farewell to everything i used to had,used to be my accompany.and starting a new high school life in a completly different environment.everything had to start from zero and i had to put my effort building it up. i can tell you,it wasnt EASY at all,well at least for me.but i guess i made it anyhow,and that treally taught me aLOT. learning new stuff and meeting new people is fun.tho we would be left out sometimes, but the most important thing is- getting used to it n learn not to be afraid&try making friends n treating ppl nicely even if they dont do that to u. and i've done that pretty well compared to when i first got there.overall, transfering to a new sch could be tough but fun as well. yeap, and i had gain new experiences in life,that make the difference. =)
if you ask did i regret,i would say:that's life.you make that move,you live to it.

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my new year resolution:

1. i wana be an happy angel

2. no more unhappy moments n shedding tears

3. do my best in spm. craving for A's !!!!

4. to be more cheerful towards life

5. i want my family to be happy

6. take undang and driving test ASAP !!!

7. wish i could get everything i WANT ! =p

8. i wana meet new people =D

9. have more excietment in life

10. wish friendship could last

-mw-

i want next year to be better

Friday, December 26, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 11:33 PM

[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
haiz
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
i already learned my lesson
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
to appreciate ur loves one
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
now i do
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
unlike last time
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
how could god
[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
giv those ppl who were just playing their gf while their gf love them so much

☜♥☞ [m] ï ŝ ş · [ώ] h ä ŧ έ v e r ☆★ says:
but its always unfair
☜♥☞ [m] ï ŝ ş · [ώ] h ä ŧ έ v e r ☆★ says:
we fall and stand up everytime with different experience n lesson learnt
☜♥☞ [m] ï ŝ ş · [ώ] h ä ŧ έ v e r ☆★ says:
with new begining next time that mature us

[e'dward[s]cullen[/s]] - how can i endure this pain again? leave me alone again? says:
why my new beginning had to end like tht

☜♥☞ [m] ï ŝ ş · [ώ] h ä ŧ έ v e r ☆★ says:
every start has an end but when tht end comes u hv to learn to let it go even if it really hurts n thts the best way sometimes learning to forgive n dont habour anything bout fair square .love isnt fair.theres one hu give another hu receive depends on whether ur the one giving or receiving

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i couldnt believe those words

came out from my mouth

its always easier said than done

tho i said it to encourage ppl

but i know i wouldnt be that strong

giving up things like love

its hard i know

sigh..

i hope u guys get better

family

wont be perfect

without the two

linking heart and hand

*trustworthy is important

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-mw-

god,be with me

cherish all those i love

please

Labels: strength n trust = love

Thursday, December 25, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 10:13 AM

hohohox..

:::

m e r r y

c h r i s t m a s

all !

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#1: the curve

the nicest of all =)

#2 : sunway pyramid

m' lovin' ittt!

a cut above..with cute snowman :)

#3: klcc

with snowman ,

gingerbread man ,

snowflakes ,

n even santa on the tree

lol~

hi sannntaaaa =p

#4:time suqare
er...very common one

#5:desa park city

white christmas n reindeer

#6: ikano

cheers

may god bless you

=)
xoxo

-mw-

wish we could spent our every year together

Wednesday, December 24, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 12:11 PM

Flawless desirable is just a fairytale aint a realization

i've realise this yesterday and i so agree with this. cuz everything i desire it wouldnt turn out perfectly right.

even though i spent time , my effort in it, all i get at the end are just craps,rubbish dissapointment.and everytime i felt so sad bout it.n with no where to turn to

sometimes i just felt like pouring, like bursting,hiding under my blanket crying it out loud when everything seemed so wrong.but its way too dramatic n pathetic.

yet my heart still cripple,it ache,it hurts.

but who could feel it except me? noone would understand this feeling of mine.even if u said u understand,u could feel it.but i still wouldnt believe cuz its far too undescribable n suffocating.

There's a urge in me,telling me to give up,throw everything away,letting it go to make myself better cuz no matter how much i tried it still dissapoint me.

but there's also another voice inside my heart giving me the courage not to give up,to stand strong even if everything screwed up even you too.cuz its belief that every good has bad in it. every perfection have flaws. and every happiness must have obstacles .for those gave strength and trust.but at times, i felt u still wouldnt share ur thoughts with me,n at times i felt maybe u would rather spend time with ur friends? ah..but i said none..just let it be.cuz its ur life,ur choice.do what make u feel happy. =)

but,

For the love i had,i choose to stick to that voice cuz i hope its worthful.

i know im not the only one trying hard.u too gave ur best. and i treasure it.

but when things get so screwed up,i couldnt hold my emotions.n that made us worse.

and i know sorry isnt just the thing.

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i dont know if u ever get to see this,

but i just wana post it out

since i couldnt tell u how i felt.

n i hope u would

understand.

-mw-

*whoa...this is like the deepest n most meaningful post ever..Lol~

ah..but whatever larhx...

its christmas eve n i cant believe im feeling abit emo [ =.=! ]

i want my mood back...=D

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merry christmas all ;)

Labels: emo - christmas eve

Tuesday, December 23, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 6:01 PM

sigh..

why must everything turned so fkingly SCREWED UP?!

when i spent time thinking how to make it work

making sure its all perfect n flawless

just want everything to go on well

but at last it ended up like that?!

zzzzzzz..

i felt like..all those effort i thrown in are USELESS dumbass

im seriously so not in the mood right now.

-mw-

Labels: why?.*big sigh

Wednesday, December 17, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 7:36 PM

had a freakingly scary dream this morning n that woke me up at 630.
after that i couldnt sleep anymore.keep thinking bout the weird dream.its like smtg i used to thought of last time bout us n today it appeared in my dream?! wht the shittt...seriously.it used to be my fear.does that dream significant anything?or is it just ...a dream? gosh. it beta had be JUST A DREAM. bcuz if it were true.ha...i wouldnt wana think of it either. just a dream just a dream just a dream !!! stop thinking larhxxx *knock head*
kay..went sunway shopping today.n i finally brought myself two pair of skinny jeans...then clothes then accessories then then...bla bla bla..tho it wasnt that satisfying but ah...still ok larhx. xD
feeling damn tired now.
toodles people . =)

wad happen?

are u gona tell me or not?

-mw-

Monday, December 15, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 11:35 PM

yes.i finally have the time to settle down in front of the com & have a lil time of mine.
it has been a tough day ,at least it is for me.compared to the last few weeks of holidays...
today,i've been helping out my mom doing house chores n've been gardening for the whole evening. it got me all so damn sweaty sticky n icky...eew.gadening really isnt my thing.imagine that,working under the sun.the weather is so damn freaking hot.sweat kept pouring like nobody business,making ur body so sticky.n uncomfortable&itchy as well.plus i gota weed the grass or soil or what-so-ever.with bugs stucking out all round.yuck. couldnt stand it..typical girls,i guess.ah..but whatever tho,just wana help my mum out.since she'd been gardening herself for the week.she badly wana get the garden done.lol..redecorating it isnt easy.stressful n tiring tho.usually i would be in the house watching tv or stuff but today i just bumped round helping her.aww..such a goodie girl today.i even tried helping out in da kitchen.washing veg cutting it then cooking.but sadly for my butter fingers,things got messed up.lol..n i got myself a cut..it hurts larhx.grr...hahax..n being in the kitchen isnt my thing too.booo! xD aha...nyway..i got this very cute dragonfly thingie from my keyboard teacher.she got it from vietnam..hhaha.n she said it has got good balancing.it could banance well even if its placed at the tip of smtg =) i like it! xoxo.thx fer da gift.
n i realised there's so much things goin on this week.plan of the week-
tues:club . tuition
wed:sunway*shopping!! .yay~
thurs:time square*to get my phone repaired.freakingly fragile keypad!every number crack.wtf!
fri:tuition tuition tuition...3 tuition.stupiaakkk!
sat:gota myself a new haircut.grrr..
sun:dinner with relatives..wee~

camwhore of the week:

happy bday grandpa xD

the silliness out of them

hehe..

i love that dress..=(

tq~

-mw-

Friday, December 12, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 7:24 PM

Tagged by yee yan

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 7 people to do this quiz ; those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by ; cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

7 people i tag:
edward.*compulsory*
n erm..anyone can do this =)

1. What have you been doing recently?
rotting at home -.-

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
duh

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
no idea

6. What do you want in your life right now?
loads n loads of fun ..n money..LOL xD

8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my pillow!

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
. =.= ?! no bottom

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
ha.....i miss you xD

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
no...-.- so complicated for wad

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope..i like my clothes xD

13. What was the last movie you caught?
uhhh..007 -.-?!

14. What are you proud of?
lols...me me n MYSELF !!

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
go my cbox n c lorhx..

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
love story - rain =p

17.Do you have any nicknames?
yeap....panda =p

18. What does your last received text message say?
o.o

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
somewhere round midnight

20. Are you currently happy?
yeap.

21. Who gives you best advice?
herhxherhx....those i trust

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
er... sometimes..

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
hmm.....mmmm...hmmm...ghost

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
nope

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you happy?
him =)

26. Do you wear toe socks?
no..

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
ahh..idk

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
yeap...plenty..haha

29. What annoys you most in a person?
some jerky or bitchy attitude

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
ah....no..

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
NO !! wth

32. What is the colour of your room?
light light light purple... lol

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
yeah ! money !!!!! XD.

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?"
huh? =.=

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
huh? noone except me can lie on my bed!!!!

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
LOL....ghost hug meee =p

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
o.o gawd knows

38. Do you have a life?
hmmm ..sorta...but i wan it to be better

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
=.= curse them? no

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
random..

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
whoa...i cant even rmb my dreams

44. What are you listening right now
*silent*

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
o.o! who else to talk to...im the only one at home

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
=.= wad a lame question

47. Is there a quote you live by?
love urself more than others =p

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
ha..i have it already

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yea.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
errrr... dont ask so much can or not?! XD

Thursday, December 11, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 10:06 AM

kay..woke up eraly in da morning

n feel like blogging..even though

my eyes hurts man...infection or smtg..

left eye is abit swellen..pain arrr... =( *sobx

hmmpt..n loads ppl say the font is TOO SMALL !

is it? is it?

ish...i guess i'll have to make it BIGGER than :D

*satisfy?

hohoho....*groan* ~

ntg much during the hols..

jz went club..shopping..n more sleep-.-

oh yea..club-tues morning.anyone?

herhxherhx..u'll be surprise if u go =p

*wink !!

-mw-

Labels: sorry i was childish.|

Tuesday, December 9, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 12:44 AM

weeeeee~

T-A-D-A !!

i finally get my blog skin done

*proudproud =p

herhxherhx...cz im usually lame at editing stuff..

blabla..anyway..i lovee it =)
.xoxo.

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cam'whore

p/s:ah~i kindda miss my long hair now..

-mw-

Labels: i miss you.do u know that? =c

Sunday, December 7, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 5:44 PM

Tagged by edward

Do you mind, if your opposite gender partner:
Go clubbing: do what he likes laaa..
Smoke: no smoking
Is an alcoholic: mind ,but if its occasional then its okay.
Do drug: eew..i wont choose him then..
Did sex before: LOL..idk
Watch porn: lol..even nerd watch b4
Steal something you like for you: aha...buy it will do
Skipped work/ classes just to meet you: touched !
Forget about anniversary: =.= duh...i mind
Use all his savings to plan a surprise for anniversary: wee...touched again xD
Bought a very ugly clothing for present: appreciate it anyway..

If your opposite gender lied about the following situation, what action will you take?
It is middle of the night, he/ she told you that he/ she is going to bed, but instead he went out with friends: whoa....mad la..why should he lie bout that? lol...jz tell the truth will do..
Your opposite gender told you that he/ she is going out with a friend that you know, but you saw him/ her in the mall with his ex- boyfriend/ girlfriend: =.= go to hell ~

Describe your ideal opposite gender:
hmm...ideal...i guess he could be sensible , caring , fun to be with
and most importantly he loves me. =D

I tag :
lazy tag ppl.
anyone can do this tag :)

am i the backup?

right....

Labels: sigh.

Saturday, December 6, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 6:33 PM

first shity, second bitchy
i wonder what's third what's next?
sluts maybe?
life is a disastrous
i feel like bursting.
and remember you have no one to lean on now.
in fact, no one would stand for you.
you would only hear them saying this :''get a life bitch !''

maybe im just a what-so-ever.

-mw-

Labels: scattered life

Wednesday, December 3, 2008 ' ♥

the ended love; 7:22 PM

GAWD !!! this is the NOISIEST day in my life ~ =.=!!

... W T H ...

oh holly great ~

my house had turned into my bro's fren territory...they totally RULED it..as if that's their house. they occupied the com the whole house my elec keyboard n even my PRECIOUS phone ?! wth....my phone weiiii.having fun open close open close it.......n guess what did i do? -----spend the whole day in my room having a headache and was trying to get some sleep ~BUT they were making so much NOISE, yelling shouting screaming playing like mad. n i was like - dot dot dot...totally speachelss n stunned~yeah..i know how standard five behave~ but i just couldnt stand their laughter~

oh yea.....and not forgetting to mention that THEY FINISHED up my dinner as well....eeeekkkkk....my mum made pizza...mmm...sounds delicious rite? but there is NOTHING left for me
WTH....am i her daughter or not...grrr~
yeah...im blogging now....eating my dinner but no PIZZA left for me
zZzZZZzzZzz...
i wan my pizza =C !!!!!! *sobx*
gahhh...i cant stand the NOISE !!!!!!!!!
oh hale yes ... they totally RULE for the day...

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* defeated *

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that's my 'wonderful' day ~
the end
* clappppppppp ~

-mw-

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Tagged by shawn.

First Name:

uhhh....amanda.duh~ who doesn't know this?! xD LOL

Nickname:

erm..a list from A-Z *wink~

Name you wish you had :

im satisfy wif my name~

What do people normally mistake your name as :

idk...@@

Birthday:

21.4

Birthplace:

Time of Birth:

=.= midnight i guess..

Single or taken :

ilovehim...=p

Zodiac sign:

taurus

-Your Appearence-

How tall are you -

don ask..xD

Wish you were taller -

yeah....i wana be a model...haha =p like i get to anyway...

Eye color -

uhh...black?

Eye color you want -

i love blue n shimmering eyes =p

Natural hair color -

black

Current hair color -

black

Short or long hair -

short la....can c from my pic wadddd.. ~

Ever dye your hair a bizarre color -

nah ~ *i wish it was pink !!

Last time you did something dramatic with your hair -

ohhhh.....idk..

Glasses or contacts -

shhh..i hate glasses =(

Do you wear make-up -

duh~girls

Ever had hair extensions -

o.O!! ~

Paint your nails -

with colours !

-In the opposite gender-

What color eyes -

any color

What color hair -

anything?as long as it looks good

Shy or Outgoing -

idk...

Looks or personality -

haaa...gud ques...xD nt gona tell u

Sexy or Cute -

lol ? both la of cuz

Serious or Fun -

both

Older or Younger than you -

er....idk...who would know wad happen if love strucks? lol

A turn on -

hottie xD lol

A turn off -

jerk !

-This or that-

Flowers or Chocolates -

diamonds !!!! =p

Pepsi or Coke -

er...i prefer starbucks . LOL!

Rap or Rock -

no rap~

Relationship or One night stand -

dot dot dot .....

School or Work -

school

Love or Money -

no love no money. no money no love xD

Movies or Music -

both

Country or City -

city duh

Sunny or Rainy days -

windy day beta

Friends or Family -

both.

-Have you ever-

Lied - duh ~

Stole something - wooo....am i a thief?

Smoked - hate smoking !!

Hurt someone close to you - eee...am i a heartbreaker?lol...idk

Broke someone's heart - LOL....maybe i did? well...sorry =(

Had your heart broken - haha..some1 special will mend it for me C=

Wondered what was wrong with you - o.o? im perfect =p

Wish you were a prince/princess - princess n a happy ending

Liked someone who was taken - no....didnt try tht b4..lol

Shaved your head - gawd NO!! unless im insane

Been in love - duh.who doesnt

Used chopsticks - sure.

Sang in the mirror to yourself -o.o i guess the mirror will break =x

-Favorites-

Flower -duno...

Candy - lollipop ! wif rainbow colours

Song - depends.

Scent - o.o?wad scent....

Color -white black pink purple

Movie - comedy...laugh till drop

Singer - idk

Word - wad la stupid *my commonly used*

Junk food - diet arrr

Website - random

Location - o.o

Animal -puppy

-Randoms-

Ever cried over someone - duh...especially when i care for them

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - prettier !! =p

Do you think you're attractive - haaa...y ask me...ask others opinion laaaa

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose -cinderella...n they live happily ever after =p

Do you play any sports - badminton. swimming. gym.

The rules:-

Link to your tagger and post these rules.

-List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1.cant live without frens

2.music cure me

3.currently into keyboard

4.love watching ppl dance =p sadly i don =(

5.afraid to be forgotten n left out

6.im a shopaholic.n just wana have fun

7.i wish spm would be abolished..hhaha

8.i love him

People I tag:

1.edward

2.mervin

3.bigk n sk

4.cheryl

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